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Words Unspoken

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Published: Oct 6, 2013

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I'm afraid to tell you anything. I'm scared you'll just think I'm lying because I don't want you to date. Well, I guess I'll tell you now. He scares the living crap out of me. I know you've noticed the scars and the bruises. Don't you dare lie to me. I KNOW you've noticed. The way I stiffen up whenever he's near me, the way I flinch whenever he pops open another beer. You're not that stupid surely! Remember when I tried to tell you that one time. You slapped me. You never apologized, mama! NEVER!

Tears streamed down my face as I wrote the note. Taking a swig out of the bottle I stole, I continued.

I just want to know, why don't you believe me? Do you really think I'm that selfish to destroy your happiness like that? How can you even be happy knowing that the man you supposedly "love" is beating your kid?! HOW?! No, in case you're wondering, he's never done "that", but he's done worse. He's broken my spirit. I never smile anymore. People in the band have started to notice. I just laugh it off and pretend it's nothing. It's not like you care anyway. I thought you loved me, but I guess not...

It doesn't really matter anymore. I just want you to know one other thing,

I still love you mama.

Goodbye.

Folding the tear-stained note, I put it on the center of the desk. I walked out of my room into the living room where y'all are on the couch watching a movie.

"Mama?" I ask. You look up and smile at me. "I'm going to sleep."

"Okay, baby," you say, "goodnight."

"Yeah," he says, smirking, "Goodnight."

All he got in return was a slamming door.

I sat on the bed, a half-full bottle of Jack Daniels that I stole from a house party that I went to the other night in one hand, a bottle of sleeping pills in the other. I just sit there, contemplating and drinking. I feel myself start to wobble slightly when I get down to a quarter-bottle. Then I pop open the pills and down them all. Falling onto the bed, I smiled slightly before I slipped into oblivion.

I love you mom.